Ear problems wreaking my life!!!!!?

i have sensitive ears.i dont like anything getting inserted in or touching around the ear as it triggers pressury feeling and sounds like a seashell noise, ive been to doctors and ents and everything checks out, the aggony i struggle with is mentioned in other of my questions(please read them) to do with this subject. idont like anything that involves ears, im hypersensitive to blocked ears and hearing loss and i reaction like a baby towards them worried they wont right themselfs, i hate my ears getting cleaned by cotton buds as they take much wax out but block the ear still leaving the outer ear spotless which mortifies me nearly to DEATH!!!!, I HAVE TINNITUS AND NOISES IN MY EAR/HEAD which effects my life and heightens sensitivity, i hear various noises loud or dead quiet , one noise that s very astatic like a tv white noise has been there my hole life which i consider part of me but still annoying, i hate the pressure feeling of pushing my ear forward like a seashell noise, i feel my ear problems are like no one elses. etc anything ear problem related bugs me, im sick of life and considering suicide will i find hard to commite please HELP ME !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!