Am so devastated all my dreams have crush.Please give me advice?

i have to repeat 10 gr again next yr just because am not cope or good enough to work for gr 11. my mom said i have like learning difficulties, my grade haven't been good so far or even since am little. am wired to arts not academically minded. so hence my mom said that i won't be able to go to college quick and she keep scolding me every time i said my dream college is in NY. :/ so i guess am not good enough to get the higher standard. my psychologist says that i have potential but am not hard working - what seems to be the problem? funny story, if you think am not hard working then try avoiding emotional pain. it's even harder than everything else you son of a *****.every i studied hard, my grades just won't go up! and every time i dream of something big, everyone laughs at me got no support at all. am in Asia my dream is always to go to America or western place. damn it.my parents everyone keep saying its impossible. i keep denying it cause its my fantasy and i want them to come true. my parents won't help to afford it for me :/ am so devastated cuz i finally let go of my fantasy/dreams and just listen to whatever my parents is doing it for me. :(((!!!!